Hi (and thank you) to everyone who reads my blog. While I try to create balance in my posts by being as authentic as I can while also not crossing personal boundaries, I would like to start opening up more, as I think it could provide beneficial background context. I’ll begin with an extremely short introduction about myself and my mental health background:
My name is Talya (obviously), and I’m currently 28. I live in Michigan—it’s very cold and boring here. I love writing and have a second blog where I share short stories I’ve written. I’m also in the process of working on two longer stories. I may post them or self-publish, (though I like the idea of keeping all my writing free.) I sometimes write songs and poetry as well. I’ve been vegan since 2018, and it’s very important to me. I’m a firm believer in reincarnation, so I am vegan for spiritual, ethical, and health reasons. When I was younger, I loved sketching and drawing, something I’d like to get back into. I’m drawn to anything weird, whether it’s odd history facts or bizarre niche films. I really enjoy finding new movies and music. I particularly like indie films, as well as grunge, electronic, hard rock, and alternative music. My favorite song ever is “Pavane pour une infant défunte” by Maurice Ravel. I’m pretty introverted and usually feel out of place, but I have a few close friends whom I really love.
I started seeing a psychiatrist when I was 7 years old. I had extreme panic disorder, agoraphobia, and OCD. My middle school and high school experiences were heavily affected by depression and self-harm. I’ve been on countless medications and have attempted three forms of ketamine treatment and TMS for my major depressive disorder, all of which have failed. I no longer resonate with the diagnoses I had as a child, like panic disorder or fear of leaving my house. Now, when I don’t want to leave my house, it’s because I need a break from the world! Like anyone, my life has had waves of incredibly difficult times and better, happier periods. Unfortunately, the past few years have been very challenging, with lots of ups and downs. Right now, I feel like I’ve fallen into a deep pit of depression. Some days, the “light at the end of the tunnel” is a dull beam, while other days, I don’t see anything but darkness. However, I’m very lucky to have an amazing support team of doctors, friends, and family. I’m also in the process of trying to find solutions that will cure or at least improve my emotions. Even though I’ve faced a lot of difficulties in life, they’ve given me the insight that I have.
Talya's life 