Suicide and impulsivity

If the topic of suicide bothers you, please do not read this post.

Suicidal ideation is not only experienced by those who suffer from depression or major depressive disorder. While someone who does not struggle with any mental illness may have a passive thought during a time of stress, it can be a common recurrence for anyone who struggles with a mental illness.

Illnesses such as obsessive-compulsive disorder, bipolar disorder, and personality disorders can all cause repeated suicidal tendencies. Because these illnesses are so complex, the reasoning for the individual varies, but (from personal experience), factors could be attributed to relationships, trauma, low self-esteem, and fear of the future. Often, the more severe the illness or if left untreated, the higher the risk of a suicide attempt.

Impulsivity can cast an unfortunate shadow in this. An attempt can be completely unplanned and sudden due to reasons such as mania, a breakup, or even simply feeling overwhelmed by the illness itself. Those with mood disorders and trauma are particularly at risk for this.

This is something I’ve battled with many times (and still do with intrusive thoughts/feelings). Although it can just be a feeling or thought, it’s still important to remember that it can become an action, so making sure you are seeing a therapist and psychiatrist is vital.