Why I’m doing “better”

Since I bought this domain, I’ve wanted to consistently post on a monthly basis. Obviously, that hasn’t happened.
While some of that is attributed to things like life changes outside of my mental health and my lack of a good attention span, a lot of it has been due to having no emotional motivation.
I posted a lot during the winter – this was due to a “low-low” in my depression (I plan on making a post in the future discussing my mood disorder). Although the fluctuation of my depression made it challenging to do simple, everyday tasks (like eating), I used a lot of the emotions I was feeling in writing. I’ve done this since I was a child, by putting my own feelings and struggles into characters in my writing.
While I’m still working on my first full-length fiction novel, I haven’t done anything on this blog, or even finished writing I originally intended to post.
Partly because I’m doing better – well, better than in the winter. Like everyone, I’m still facing challenges, some that are too difficult to deal with right now; I actually made the choice to leave therapy. (In my adult life, I’ve never been too keen on sticking to therapy for long periods of time.) For the first time, I’m seriously planning out what I want to do with my life, and part of that is going back to school. I want to see myself happy and successful on my own.
I wish there were something I could recommend to feel more hopeful or “get out” of a dip in depression, but there really isn’t anything. For people with mood disorders, both external and internal factors contribute to instability. I’ve had a lot of medication changes – none of which have caused more optimism or level-headed thinking. I suppose the biggest thing is that I’ve been attempting to put myself first, rather than the unhealthy habits I was following before.
I have more writing I’d like to post soon, and I also deeply appreciate it when people send suggestions. Thanks for reading. x